Aloud

I speak
But not really.
In my mind
I hear myself.
Questioning
Wondering
What I am doing?
Not too happy
Not even ecstatic
To where I brought myself.
Steps I took
I no longer rejoice.
Own youth has escaped me
Regrets. Remorse.
Envy. Jealousy
Surrounds me.
How do I chase
Dreams. Success.
Path which is right
Deserving delight.
Wandering
Still looking.
I Speak
But not really.
In my mind
I hear myself.